Picture this: you've got your Sunday paper. You've pulled out the magazine to browse through while you drink your coffee. The headline is something like: Do you feel lucky? (Dirty Harry somehow doesn't seem appropriate when talking about breasts, I know. I'm working on it.)
In December 2009, I was diagnosed with DCIS: ductal carcinoma in situ, an early form of breast cancer. The same form, as it happens, as Martina Navratilova, although there I stop making comparisons. There is an incredible range of diagnoses and individual risk factors affecting the likelihood of it turning into full-blown invasive disease. In many women, it never does. In others, it’s highly likely. The key here is that we have an opportunity to prevent (for some) later stage breast cancer, to catch it nice and early before it’s had a chance to eat away at our bodies. Hurrah! The problem is, we don’t know which cases are going to mutate, and when. Bollocks.
DCIS, let alone the whole category of breast cancer, is dreadfully misunderstood. DCIS isn’t a one-size-fits-all disease. There are three different grades, for starters. 1 is low, 3 is high. If you have grade 1 DCIS, and you’re getting on in years, there’s a minimal chance of it turning invasive. My surgeon puts it like this: if you're an older woman with grade 1 DCIS, you may not need to have breast surgery. You may not need any treatment at all. You're more likely to die of old age first. If you have grade 3 (which mine was), if it’s extensive (mine was 9 cm) and you’re pretty young (I was 38), your chances of getting invasive cancer, and soon, skyrocket. I had a mastectomy. Every doctor must make an assessment of risk and advise on appropriate treatment based on the individual patient. So don't hit the panic button. Well, not without being informed properly. Unfortunately, some people aren't - but it's not necessarily anyone's fault. The subject is a minefield and difficult to navigate, even for doctors...
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You still here? More soon!
(Photo by "joxin" at http://www.flickr.com; creative commons)
I was only thinking of you a few days ago and then saw your blog post via Twitter. I'm not sure whether you received my email (sent in reply to your UCF mail some time ago) but you've been in my thoughts. I hope the surgery went well and that you're journeying onwards with optimism for the future. Love & bright wishes. xx PS ... We've missed your sparkling presence on the course. Hope you'll be able to return soon. :)
ReplyDeleteOh thanks Carol - I've got verbal diarrhoea about the experience now, as you can tell. I did get your message, but I've been excluded from the UCF email and learning space, so I have been out of the loop. I'm not sure what's next for me; I've been given the opportunity of an editorial job which I'm very interested in. I may or may not finish the course. Either way, would love to keep in touch. Thanks again for your lovely thoughts. x
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